What do you do when life becomes mundane? When all excitement and intrigue is lost? When getting up in the morning is the last thing you want to do? Is it because all is so well known? Or because there are no goals? A lack of health? Or wealth?
What do you do when you have no reason to go on? And all you want to do is to curl up and disappear? Why do the tears needlessly fall, when all appears to be fine? And you know there are so many who have real problems...and yet thats not enough?
I know my life is blessed, and I'm surrounded by greatness...So why do I feel inferior? So easily forgotten? Is it becuse I am common by comparison? Or maybe uncommonly inessential? Is it all just a lack of effort? A lack of putting on the game face that would win?
Why do I feel so incomplete, when I am all alone? Without strong arms to hold me steady, can I make it through the night? Phisically alone in a world of confusion, where the immaterial seems so distant, I seek comfort in the strengths of others.
Although I'm aware that they can not save me, I see no other way to hide from myself. I know what I must do and what to avoid, and yet I fall in the weakness that I am. Fall to temptations I know how to avoid. Failing to push myself to success.
With a lifetime that has been dedicated to staying in the middle, why would I be so surprised by my blending in? I guess I always assumed people would notice the magic I have within...But that's hard to do when it isnt there...Why isnt it there?